| Ivan Tsarevich |
[Dec. 31st, 2008|02:48 am] |
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| | Lonely Soul - UNKLE | ] |
"If I glorify myself, my glory means nothing." - Jesus |
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| Red Dust |
[Nov. 21st, 2008|11:41 pm] |
Because we are composed of substances also found in soil, I wonder if the positions of the heavenly bodies have anything to do with our moods .
Workmates bore me to tears. |
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| Prudence Farrow |
[Aug. 9th, 2008|01:58 pm] |
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"No one was to know that sooner or later she was to go completely berserk under the care of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. All the people around were very worried about the girl because she was going insane. So, we sang to her." - John Lennon |
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| Nacho Cheese |
[Jul. 30th, 2008|03:36 am] |
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| | Everybody Wants To Rule The World | ] |
1: What do you call a cheese that's not yours?
2: What?
1: Nacho cheese! |
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| I Failed. |
[Jul. 2nd, 2008|08:44 pm] |
I always find myself in places I'm not suppose to be in. I failed the training of my potential first McJob by 2 points. It's both blessing and nightmare in disguise. People were the most difficult obstacle. I guess that's a given. I wish I was as tough as Dexter. The guy I thought was cool started singing some love song, and I felt the ground sucked me down. Then I saw the end of the world, and I thought, "Ahhh I might not survive. I'd be very alone." |
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| My McJob |
[Jun. 27th, 2008|09:41 pm] |
1.) A job is for money.
2.) A career is for self-fullfillment.
So, I have been training so hard in this café. There are days when you feel degraded doing difficult things, but then again a proper mindset cures everything. Going out and exposing myself to these things are only part of "testing the hypothesis and applying the theories". This one is a real far cry from my first job (which I infinitely abhor) that payed real cash. No one gets through life unscathed. I like different experiences.
Advice:
-Hold on and LEARN.
-Be humble.
-Inspire people. |
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| Master of None |
[May. 21st, 2008|01:54 am] |
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All that's needed is a theme, a sort of something that would unify the set. Also, some more motivation. Time to be a master of something or at least to attempt. It has just arrived to my realization that every artist should have a portfolio. No one's more late bloomer than I. There's a pressure to make one now after having encountered inspiring illustrators. It's not very fun staying home everyday rationalizing life, it's actually paralizing. I am thinking about the consequences of my movements, mentally postulating their outcomes, mostly what come first are the potential dangers, hence I don't move. The world is a train that has my family in it, leaving me in the middle of nowhere. What am I to do? No one was paying attention while they were potty training me. I could die. Poop kills. Thank God for my gift. I had a portfolio for a final plate in my sophomore year. It was made so I could have something submitted, it wasn't intended to be used for real. I got zero ambitions. If only I had been a serious student.. and a more social one, for connection's sake. School had been like washing dishes, I believe it's not for everyone. I was only floating around, waiting for the day I could get out of there. My classmates seemed like they knew where they were heading. On the otherhand, I took pride on my laid-back attitude and it is now taking its toll. This mind can be frustratingly slow paced. Naturally there's a feeling of being left behind. I have to know where it is an advantage. "Slowly but surely" A tired phrase but fitting. |
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| Altruism, Egotism, Hate |
[May. 3rd, 2008|02:48 am] |
Altruism is the opposite of egotism. It will hurt the ego to be of no use to others although sometimes altruism is also bad for the ego. I haven't been that much thoughtful, but I sometimes dream of the cliches like being a Red Cross volunteer. Maybe I could die happier serving others than living life only for myself. Life, I guess, is worthless in an "I" world but the ego gains its worth/value from the sacrifices done for the sake of others. In history, the great people who are admired and respected -not only in their own place but in many cultures- are the ones who has put the good of others before their own. So in conclusion, altruism actually glorifies the ego, not starting at the end of the act but beginning in the process. Those who died doing what they wanted/what they believed was right, whether finished or not, timely or not, lived the life worth calling A LIFE -at this view, it really has nothing to do with happiness instead it's all about fullfillment. I believe that the feeling of satisfaction is not found only at the end of each journey. Ideally, It must be carried in one's heart all the time. The questions are where to find it and how to behold it.
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A line in The Clash's song Clampdown says "anger can be power", is a perfect example of people's artistic expression that can be blown out of proportion. A lot will say they can perfectly relate to the artist's emotions, but I don't think that it's that identical after all when you're just about to turn your lifestyle into the lyrics and the artist's image. I don't think the artists will be flattered of that aswell. Mostly, to them it's creepy that "fanatics" get so moved up to the extremes of their behaviours. Was their music/art made for that? I doubt it. In my observation of the current culture of youth right now it looks that hate is becoming over rated, that the proper manner of talking has now become the new improper. I have to exagerate for the sake of expression. Woe to this generation; Everyones's angry with everything, because angry is cool; An angry person looks like he/she has depth. For me, what hatred really destroys first is its container. I have to get myself a protector. Or is it too late? No, what's good about emotions is that they can be edited inside before they manifest themselves outside. This is a manisfistation. Ayy confussion galore. |
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| The Great? |
[Apr. 23rd, 2008|08:30 pm] |
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I prefer using Alexander of Macedonia than Alexander The Great. The root of greatness is goodnes, what's so good about bloody conquests? |
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| Chinese Painting: Looking In |
[Apr. 20th, 2008|08:14 pm] |
For days now, I've been watching DVD's before I sleep. Yesterday night it was Discovery Channel. History is one good contributor in making us realize why we are who we are. What I saw made another clear distinction behind the Philosophies of the East from the West. The two are like Yin & Yang really contrasting each other, sometimes harmoniously. In Chinese painting, the landscape is the focus of the art, on the other hand Western paintings' subjects are mostly about humans where the landscape serves only as background. I had to take note of passages I liked. This one is from Artifacts, A Brush with Wisdom:
The Mandarin painters of China rejected representational realistic painting techniques because they fail to realize the first rule of Chinese Art: to express the hidden reality behind the illussion of surface appearance.
For example, incontrast to Western painting's utilization of a single light source one finds in Chinese painitng a fluid interplay between light and dark, with no single source of illumination. This approach, which may at first seem to reflect a lack of understanding of the physical properties of light highlights the Chinese painting's emphasis of movement, vitality, and spirit.
In addition, Mandarin painters rejected single point perspective. Unlike a Western landscape, the painting is designed to be looked into rather than looked at so there is no single vanishing point instead the viewer's eye travels around the scenery, like a traveler wandering on foot.
Said one 11th century critic: "All landscape should be viewed in an angle of totality. to see the totality of its unending ranges."
In fact many Chinese paintings adopted a moving perspective - A trick no still camera or a fixed point of view could achieve. |
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| 4PM + Summer |
[Apr. 6th, 2008|11:10 pm] |
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Afternoons cast the prettiest colors that my skin can ever taste: lemon, peach, tangerine. Soft summer sunlight turn me poetic to the point of speechlessness. My prettiest memories greet me by whispers. I space out to dreamland, turn into a cat, peacefully lounging under this precious light. |
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| ART |
[Mar. 31st, 2008|04:27 pm] |
When I saw an old faded pink toothbrush (in our kitchen, I think) there's something about it that gave me the same feeling as infatuation. Of course, I am not infatuated with the toothbrush, but there is something about it that talks to my soul. I dream of showing it to people and hope they would see what I see in it (or feel), I don't know for what reason, I guess I would like to hear things not normally discussed about - the thrill of tapping into secret thoughts.
There had been many movements through out history that reshaped its definition, but up until now it's still a subject of debate as to how an art becomes an art. Sometimes pieces take their value from the philosophy of their creator. Ideas are worth more than materials. For a long period, works had to be visually pleasing, even perfect, for them to be called art; Then came contemporary artists who shed new light on the topic. The mind of the artist sets him a level higher than what he produces. In my opinion, Jackson Pollock was both an artist and an art. |
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| The X-Files |
[Mar. 22nd, 2008|07:26 pm] |
About all the fuss/rage that has been going on. Terrorist attacks not excluded.
I am amazed at Scully and Mulder's platonic love; Also, at how much unknown possibilities it opened the minds of viewers to. Fantastic. |
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| Nothing is real - |
[Mar. 12th, 2008|07:58 pm] |
If today is all we see
Then tomorrow seems to me
Is just an illusion we believe
I am most in awe of those who haven't entered school but know how to preserve what matters most in life: respecting and practicing good and avoiding what's bad, than those who have been educated and exposed but are lost and have forgotten the basics, well groomed but really rubbish deep inside; succesful yet tormented. Through materialism they turn psychotic, depressed, and suicidal. No peace of mind. Ego kills. I kind of believe that Nirvana is essential but it is just a part of a bigger thought. To stay open is a positive thing.
Time moves and everything changes. Perhaps that means there really exist not a "present". People have to look-up the meaning of certainty. The dillema is who to trust about which is right/wrong. We are all humans - bound to make mistakes, and nothing can salvage us from that fate. Consensus only arrives in decissions regardless of truth. Truth that up until now seems to remain as our mysterious puppet master that won't show its face to us, for once it did we would lose the reason to keep moving/inquiring. |
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| For What |
[Mar. 12th, 2008|05:25 pm] |
"For knowledge is limited to
all we now know and understand,
while imagination embraces
the entire world, and all there ever
will be to know and understand.”
-Einstein
A lifetime is too short to experience & learn everything -therefore too short to know everything. The word "everything" is like the univerese and it's laws; We only get the jist of what it is like but still it's an abyss, scary. Fear/Terror is the product of ignorance - we are frightened of what we do not know. At many points we just succumb to a Yes/No, not necessarily reaching the truth, therefore truth cannot be caged in a mere definition - I am actually beginning to think that the quest for it's meaning is an individual experience.
True Science is admirable when it admits that there is no certainty, only useful theories. People should be informed of that fact first and foremost: what's written on books or what's been said/done are all "subject to change" - nothing is final. I feel like the hike for being all knowing is a selfish struggle if done only for self-gratification, to have a sense of self-worth, while the highest use of knowledge power should be for the benefit of others, not of self. According to Plato an ideal ruler is the one who's reluctant to be one, because he knows that it demands of him to be righteous for the good of the people he governs; On the otherhand, a ruler who is eager has selfish interests. |
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| Coronary flow |
[Mar. 5th, 2008|04:39 am] |
Capital Sins. Thomas Aquinas was overweight.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seven_deadly_sins
Guilt, especially those that are influenced by the 'western world', mostly came from the Judeo-Christian concept of righteousness, virtues, and moral principles. Some of the popular moral arguments we use against certain institutions, also came from those institutions, which is silly.
Rules can be perfect -humans can't, but it's not an excuse to stop trying. While still in the process of struggle to attain goodness - we've aready succeeded. The highest victory in my opinion is won inside the mind. After all, who can argue against subjective reality? I guess, the best way to prevail in a battle is to lose in the eyes of many.
Elementary is important. It's a shame that we cannot be better than our predecessors in a way that they have done all the up-hill climb, while us, either on the climax or on our way down - whether time and space goes in cycles or in a straight lign (where in, there is a beginning & an end). |
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| Light & Shadows |
[Mar. 2nd, 2008|04:20 pm] |
warned to be careful of shadows- areas where light will not pass. the buttom of the sea in my imagination is the most frightening: absence of air, absence of light-- fear of the unknown. once in my young existence, the light turned into a stranger, it began after i went to wonder into the forest, mostly at night when it was most thrilling and mysterious. the caves, its temperature and dimness, gave me comfort and a sense of security. the sunlight though started to hurt my eyes. why keep my eyes open when i can have it comfortable and well protected closed? a one sided perspective: in darkness you won't see, simple and plain. but too much light is also blinding. it is actually through the harmony of light and dark that makes us really see. the eyes are made to be opened and closed, only it's easier closed, only i will miss on a lot. although, yes, "sight" is not the only sense that can detect light/dark....
*Ever since I encountered Plato's 'Allegory of the Cave' - it never left my mind. It influenced my logic and reasoning about certain matters to some extent. Also, it's a good example of the concept of duality. |
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| Empirical World |
[Feb. 22nd, 2008|04:27 pm] |
Questions line themselves up in an unimaginable speed, and I drown in my self, choked by emotions. This things my mind knows but my eyes don't. It's been said that it is not the sorroundings that has the power over a being, instead it should be the other way around. It is true, in a way that one's response to things becomes the color of everything. No matter how unpleasant a situation can be - one can choose the perspective.
More ramblings:
If I say that we can only hold certainty (truth) for a period, then I am also saying that certainty is limited to time and space, it is unstable and it changes. If that is so, then does it still make sense to hold on to it/ believe it? Or is it much better to accept momentary and fleeting truth? "if today is all i see, then tomorrow is just an illussion." - shows the contrast between knowldge and wisdom.
I think that truth should remain true regardless of time and space. It should be universal; It exists the same in every culture, in every language, but not necessarily limited to objectivity as we are divided in many ways - we cannot think as one and the same. I think that 'goodness' is the best universal truth. |
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